let me start off by saying, i adore my sister and i am not upset at her personally. i respect and support her decisions always and she is my best friend.

i have a sister who is slightly older than me and has three kids. i have none and i’ve been dying for one badly. she knows that we’ve been trying for a baby for over a year and asked me if i have fertility issues. i’m 22 so i haven’t gone to my doctor about this yet. aside from her three kids she has gotten a good handful of abortions. i don’t know the exact number maybe 4-6.

she got an abortion two months ago and just found out shes pregnant again and i was so happy for her if she wanted to keep the baby but i was so sad deep down for myself. she got pregnant back to back with kids she won’t keep and here i am struggling to get pregnant just once. writing this i’m sobbing on my bathroom floor because i just don’t understand why.