Home birth

Tomorrow will be two months since I had my home birth. This was our second and last child we plan on having. Although I hated being pregnant, I loved how powerful giving birth 100% unmediated made me feel. My first was at the hospital with intervention after intervention. Two completely different births. My hospital birth left me feeling powerless and helped me fall into a deep depression. My second birth left me feeling on top of the world. Although I’m sure we are done having children. I’m sad that I’ll never again have that awe feeling. Anyone else feel this way?