Preparing for divorce. I'm 24 and have been separated since june 2019. I gave him plenty of chances and he just never took me seriously when I said things needed to change. He hasn't seen me or tried to see me since I left, hasn't called except once in the very beginning the day after I left and at that point I was too upset to answer the call.

I feel like he wanted me gone the lack of effort trying to fix things shows it..

I'm at a point where I'm no longer in love with him. I think I'll always have some general form of love because I spent almost 5 years of my life with this person but I'm not in love..

The only time he talks to me is every few months I get a one line text and an I love you but no true effort. I feel like I was just a warm body to lay next to at night. I wasn't a wife, a partner..but it hurts because he used to be my best friend. And somewhere along the way I lost that, losing your bestfriend hurts.

For over 6 months I've built my own life, struggled on my own, found someone who I think I may have a potential future with. I'm eventually going to have to see my ex, hear his voice for the first time in over 6 months to exchange some property and attempt to have him sign divorce papers. Why am I scared? Why am I nervous? I dont regret my decision, I've honestly been happier since I left. I mean there were a few bumps in the road but overall I think I'm happier. I dont really miss him and most days he isn't on my mind except when I'm thinking about the divorce papers. I think I'm scared of all the feelings I've had over the past few months rushing me at once. I dont want to stay, I want to move on with my life. Yet I still feel hurt about signing away 5 years of my life. Is that normal?