Just don’t feel pregnant

I know kids of symptoms don’t mean anything necessarily.....I just can’t help but feel like this isn’t going to work out. We have a history of losses although most were super early and one was at 9 weeks.

I’m on progesterone suppositories that are pink and so make it look like I’m slightly spitting but I don’t think I actually am yet. But between the low progesterone, lack of symptoms, and that the heart rate was 161 on Thursday and decreased to 145 Sunday it all had me concerned