36w 2d with di di twins (second pregnancy, first Singleton went right on her due date at 40w and I had signs of preterm labour with her and none for these babies). I started at 108 and am now 148Ibs. So I’m up 40Ibs and I’m sure I’ll gain more- since I’m eating my feelings/exhaustion and not sleeping- so so uncomfortable ALL the time. I feel absolutely massive and a bit defeated since my NST seemed the least eventful today of all my previous tests. I’m scheduled for a c section next Friday and I know I’m so close - but I’m so so so done and want to move on to our next chapter of them being in our arms and our home!

Things on my mind:

(1) will they come early? If so when? Or will they make me wait?

(2) will they be healthy & we can go home ASAP?

(3) how will I feel after a second c section, having a 30Ib 19 month old at home and new born twins? how will my body ever go back? How long will it take? I want to heal properly from the section- but really need all this weight off too as my knees have been horrible this pregnancy! And I’m falling apart!