Hit and miss

2019 was and is a pretty rough year for me and my partner. My partner developed PTSD and severe depression. Sex went down. My partner told me they weren't attracted to my body and have been feeling this way for a few months. I was never aware as the 'few months' they were feeling this way, we were having more sex? They also aquired a best friend whom helped him find confidence to talk about this with me....this friend also told him I'm toxic and he needs to leave me because apparently I've been on my "high horse" but I've really just put my foot down, standing up for myself around him, as he seemed to have more of a effort with his friend...and now I cannot stop thinking about this friend and my feelings from that night he said everything. Things seem fine but a person pretty much destroyed my marriage of 7 years... that's what it feels like...I don't feel sexy any more..but I am trying. We still have sex. We are still together. It's just a hard time right now. If you made it this far, then congrats on reading my vent. I really just needed a vent and it feels so good. I really don't want negative comments on this, I really just needed a vent 🙄🙃