Protection Order

I had to get a protection order on my husband. It was approved on Friday but hasn't been served yet. This is 100% not what I want but it had to happen to keep myself and my pups safe. I'm currently living my dad and sometimes staying at my mom's.

It all kind of started on 9/13. He started having nonsensical, paranoid thoughts. He was trying to connect things in his mind that were clearly not connected. He called the cops to his mother's house because he was convinced someone was following her and was in the back of her car, after he made her walk out of her house and sit in her car. At one point he thought someone was holding her hostage and forcing her to do coke.

On 9/25 my husband picked me up for lunch, while we were driving he saw someone from his old job and all of a sudden he and I were connected and out to get my husband. He began screaming that he was going to kill me and began running red lights, driving fast, and weaving in and out of traffic. He also confessed to cheating on me while he was threatening to kill me. After about 15 minutes of this, something clicked and he was back. He apologized and swore it wasnt him. He dropped me off at work and was fine for the remainder of the day.

On 9/26 we were going to take trip for his birthday. I had been working two jobs as he had been jobless since March and needed the extra income. He followed me home from my second job and as we were walking into our apartment he said something about me cheating on him (which I have never done and never will do). I denied this and started grabbing my stuff to leave. He told me any future children we had would not be able to forever to my father's house alone, I got defensive and questioned him on his reasons why. He didn't give me any reason, but the started saying he was God and proceeded to try and exercise a demon out of me. He refused to let me leave and would not let me go. I eventually got him to come outside with me. At which point he said he would leave and I went inside to grab his stuff and called the cops to ensure I was able to get out safely. I then again went and stayed with my dog for about 2 weeks. We then rented a house and moved in.

On about 12/10 he started making wild accusations about my family and them being part of some plan or scheme that was out to get him. He took my phone and went through it and refused to give it back to me until he decided he was finished. At one point it got so intense that he was going to kill me. He asked fort phone back and I said no he tried to grab it out of my hand and scratched me, took my phone, and yelled that he was going to kill me. He went into the kitchen and grabbed a large knife. I was able to de-escalate him and convince him not to kill me and put the knife away. I swore to him that I wouldn't tell anyone anything and he would be fine. He had a breakthrough/down and said he knew it wasn't him and that the devil was trying to attack him.

On 1/8 he again started making accusations about my family being involved in things to get him. He accused my family to have been involved in his grandpa's cousin's death. This time instead of hurting me or putting his hands on me he told me if I didnt tell jim everything I knew that he would kill one of our dogs & stated that no one in my family was safe. He picked up our dog by the collar multiple times and hung her in the air causing her to choke, pee & poop herself, and shoved her away in her water bowl to drown her. He threatened that when I went to work the next day when I came home both of our dogs would be dead and their blood spread throughout the house. I was able to sneak text my dad, step mom, and brother to call the cops. They arrived and I was able to leave, but they couldn't take him in.

The following day I went and applied for the protection order and it was granted on Friday but hasn't been served yet. He keeps texting me and saying all the "right" things about how he's going to fix everything and make it all right. This is by far the hardest and worst thing I have ever been through. I want re bathing to be ok and work out but I cannot stay with him unless he gets help.

Sorry this is so long I just needed to get it all out