I think I want to leave my husband

First off, we have an almost 3 year old together and I’m pregnant with our second. This pregnancy was unplanned (be he is definitely not unloved ❣️ I’m so excited)

Our relationship was bad before the baby came along, then we got notice that we would be moving for his job. I had to quit my schooling. I didn’t resent him for it (it’s not his fault for the relocation, just his job) but I was disappointed.

I don’t think even think he’s a bad guy. And he’s not a bad father. There’s things I don’t like- his anger at times, impatience with our son, etc...

But I don’t like him. I don’t think I love him anymore. I don’t want to be around him. He plays video games until 2am. I stay at home, we have one car. I feel defeated and lonely. We literally- literally- never have dates. And if one is planned it’s me planning it. In fact, it’s me planning everything. Otherwise we’d sit at home while he plays video games all day. I’m the one who suggests to go to a park, or whatever. He’s almost 30 and still acts like he’s 20. He never compliments me, which I know is superficial and whatever. I’ve learned to live with the fact that I’ll never hear I look sexy or hot, cute, or whatever. I’m LGBT and he makes fun of the things I’m passionate about. I’ve told him things I need to feel loved and they never happen. I made a comment this week that I needed a break, that I was exhausted and would like for him to take our son out one day so I can jsut relax at home by myself (I do this for him sometime, so he can play games in peace...) and he hasn’t done it. In fact he said, “what am I supposed to do with him?” I got kind of shitty and said “idk take him to the park... get icecream, literally anything???”

Some days I feel like I hate him. And part of its hormones. But not all of it. I spend my days alone with our toddler and I feel even more alone with he’s home. My good days turn bad half of the time when he’s around. We fight constantly. I’ve gotten to the point where I don’t even want to fight, to put effort into anything. So I’ve just stopped saying what hurts my feelings, what I dislike about things he does or whatever. I’ve dropped it. I leave him alone, I spend my evenings by myself taking a bath or laying bed alone for hours after our son goes to bed.

I have no job, third trimester pregnant and I’m super far from family. I feel stuck and lost and unsure of what to even do. I’ve considered going to stay with my parents to finish school.... and then just not coming back. I don’t want to do this anymore.