I feel like I’m losing it 🙃

The past week have been horrible, I have terrible insomnia to the point where I’m up till 5 am and sleep untill 5pm if I’m allowed to and wake up tired. I’ve tried waking up eariler but I’m still exhausted physically.

I was on anti depressants and prescription sleeping meds but after awhile my body got use to them so I’d have to switch and the same thing would happen. I stopped taking my birth control in September so 5 months ago ( TTC ).

I am stressed out beyond anything ever before and that’s says a lot. I had a anxiety/ panic attack 2 weeks ago. Unemployed because my last job worked me 12 hours every two weeks and that by no means is a source of income. Struggling to pay bills .. owe a lot of people money for helping out. Never have gas or food .. -133$ in the bank because they keep charging me overdraft fees that I never did and when I bring it up to them ( I paid 400+ in December and they just say there’s nothing they can do and I need to pay more attention.. WHICH I DO BUT THEY STILL FUCK ME ) .. mood swings out the ass and I can’t help it . I feel like I’m getting so snappy with my fiancé and I hate it but I don’t know what to do ..

I can’t see a therapist again because don’t have the gas money to get there..