Baby shower

I know this is a little crazy none of my friends offered to throw me a baby shower but I damn for sure did everything I could when they had babies.!! My best friend i threw her a baby shower and I got her a crib and the mattress to go with it and clothes and stuff... my cousin I got her car seat stroller and bedding for her crib... and no I didn’t throw my cousin a shower because someone already did but I was there for everything with it... I feel like I did so much and not getting anything in return.!! Do I sound selfish or do I sound nasty I’m honestly not trying to I honestly feel like my feelings are hurt 😞 I just feel like no one is gonna be there for me through my pregnancy I have tried for years to have