Breastfeed or formula .

Can you fellow mamas help me any?? Soo, im due in July but im an avid planner and thinker! At first I was IN LOVE with the idea of feeding my girl via the boob. But I read so much scary stuff on the pain and what all it can do to us and im honestly SO scared. I want that experience (saying I can even physically do so) but now im second guessing. Can any of you tell me any of your experiences as FTM and breastfeeding and try to help me make a good choice for me and my baby girl? TIA💛