Why???

Why do we torture ourselves early testing...like why? I have said that it’s fun but is it really? It’s a damn emotional rollercoaster full of hope, doubt, and uncertainty. Yet here I am testing again. Been testing since Sunday and see a shadow of something in one, then nothing in others. Feeling symptoms but somehow I think I’m manifesting it all. Period due Friday so I’m going to try and stop with it all! Rant over...baby dust to you all!