This isn’t even a horrible thing.

But, all I can do is constantly think about having a baby. All I can think about is having that love and bond with my baby. I’m only 23, I know it’s not super young to have a baby but I know I’m not financially ready to have a baby. My boyfriend does not want to have a baby for another few years. (We’ve been together for almost 5 years) I’m currently about 6 days away from my period according to glow and part of me hopes it doesn’t show. The other part of me hopes it does.. we aren’t trying and we aren’t preventing so whatever happens happens because he knows I couldn’t go through with the other opportunities. But the reason I don’t want to be is because I know he won’t be too happy about it because he isn’t ready for a baby just yet. It’s really been hitting me the past couple of days to where my depression is hitting hard. Now the whole reason I hope it doesn’t show is because I’ve had some weird signs I’ve never had before a period but I’ve said this before to something else and my period showed. I don’t know what to do but me constantly thinking about this on top of other things in my life I’m really starting to think I should find a therapist.