how do i tell her

i am in love with my friend.

i don’t think the feeing is mutual so i have not told her. we have been close friends for a few years now and she means so much to me. she has just started dating a girl. i’m getting all the info, how excited she is, every little conversation they have, and it’s breaking my heart.

how can i ask her to stop sharing. without ruining our friendship?

i’m so scared of losing her.

UPDATE

so i told her, kind of. And now i’m dreading seeing her because i feel really selfish and stupid.