I'm done trying. . .

AF showed her big fat ugly my face today out of the blue with no symptoms. I was 3 days late and had my hopes up so high. Next thing I know I hey up from the couch and find a blood spot from where I was sitting. Bright red blood on first day of AF isn't something I have ever had and no cramps but my heart dropped when I saw it. I had my hopes up so high and truly thought this was our month. How wrong I was.

So I'm done trying. Im so tired of the heart ache and disappointment every month. It's been 9 months and every month i get more and more depressed. I could of gone through a while pregnancy by now.

I cried today because I don't understand why we can't have another baby when we didn't even try with our first. I cried because I got my hopes up again and again was let down. I cried my eyes out and my husband got mad. He said omg what is wrong with you. Then I cried harder. He doesn't understand the agony I go through even though I try to tell him.

I'm just done. . .

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