Panic when I eat.

Why is this!? I hate it. After my first daughter I developed this thing where anytime I would eat, in home or out I would have anxiety & panic about it. Idk if it had to do with me being out of shape & I bit over weight at the time & I was afraid of gaining weight or something... I don't remember fearing weight gain than. I do however remember always thinking, this is unhealthy for me, this could clog my arteries.... Stuff like that. That whole issue went away after a couple years & I no longer panicked & got anxious about it. However, I just had my 2nd daughter 3 weeks ago & the panic every time I eat is back again. Ugh.