Movieing on

For a while now I’ve liked this boy I get jealous wen he talks about a girl we dated for a while then became best friend I wanted to date him I love him so much but mom n dad put a kibosh on that and so there went cuddles kisses and long lost earring into each other’s eyes I know it’s going to hurt to move on and it’s going to take time we hang out everyday and play around and stuff some times I just say just friends and repeat it to not fall back in love w him but it doesn’t always work I’m hurting and going thru a lot he’s been there for me thru break ups my mother kicking me out to me getting in fights at school ever since we were 12 and next year he graduates and I’m stuck in high school bc my bio mother didn’t put me in school for 2 1/2 years so idk if he’ll be their for me all the time like he is now I look back on then and think what happened but if life happened I some times cry bc I miss him just knowing he misses me back and everyone we’re together I fell whole but I think it’s time for me to move on and get my self together and start working towards my dreams how do I cope with the fact that I could lose what I have know just need a little advice please 🥺😞😞😔😔😔😔