No sleep

So I'm sitting at the hospital with my fiancé because his mother only has about a day left. He is passed out laying over me whereas I can not sleep. I don't like hospitals, I just feel to many negative things have happened in my life here. Honestly I only agreed to stay because my fiancé needs my support and I love my soon to be mother in law. Also because no one can get any movement out of her whereas every time I'm in the room she either draws a tear when I speak with her and opens her eyes for a split second to look at me, I even got a slight nod out of her tonight. So not only does me just being her for him relax and help him but it give him happiness to see his mother acknowledging that I'm/we are there. At times I feel bad because its only me she is doing anything for but at the same time I feel joy. I know I have been posting a lot about her I just have bad anxiety, depression, panic attacks, and bi polar and I can't say my feelings out loud, its a struggle for me so writing them down helps me express my feelings and some of you ladies here have given me great advice. So if they are getting annoying/outta control you can tell me in the comments or have glow anonymously tell me, I won't be offended. I'm very understanding.