Need a friend

I’m going through a really tough time and have no one to talk to. Just need a place to vent. I’ve been to ob triage twice this week because of decreased fetal movement and each time they tell me baby looks great and there’s nothing to worry about with no answer as to why I’m not feeling my baby move as much. They tell me to do a quick count and if it comes back less than 10 and two hours to come back in that literally happens every day. I’m exhausted and feel confused like I’m not getting answers. It’s been very stressful for me. On top of that my bf works over seas. He has a very busy day-to-day schedule but not always with work he has friends there he goes to the gym he does jujitsu he plays video games it’s pretty much just like a normal job except overseas. We tend to fight a lot and usually it’s only about communication. Like when he’s going to call me or saying he’s gonna call me and doesn’t call me it would be one thing if it was you know his job got in the way but usually it’s so sorry I was playing my video game or oh sorry I got distracted by my friends. Really frustrates me. Then when I try to express to him that I am hurt by something he did or didn’t do he literally gets mad at me and puts me down and says mean awful things that extremely hurt my feelings and we end up not resolving anything and I just have to get over it on my own. He goes about his day because he’s so busy with so many other things and I’m stuck crying by myself with no one to talk to and no hobby to distract my mind. I know I need to make my own friends I know I need to find my own hobbies I’m just really struggling right now. Sorry for the long rant.