Delayed post partum depression.. ?

Question

Im not exactly sure how late it can start but i definitely feel like i have it.. at first i thought it was just the fact that my daughter is a toddler now but the way I’ve been feeling just doesn’t make sense. I love my baby girl with everything in me but i have been hating motherhood. I’m exhausted. I don’t have the energy or will to do anything anymore. I want to sleep all day. I get extremely annoyed with my baby and i feel like all i do is yell now. I feel so guilty. She is such a good girl but everything she does annoys me. I just want to cry and rip my hair out. I am not enjoying motherhood. I want this feeling to end because my daughter deserves a better mom.. i never want to be around her anymore... i sound so u grateful. Why do i feel like this
Edit* i don’t know if this is related but i just stopped pumping about a month ago around the same time i started feeling like this. Could i be feeling like this from stopping the pumping?

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I’m not an expert, but I do think you may be experiencing some depression. It also sounds like you need a break! Do you have someone who can watch your baby for half a day so you can get out of the house for yourself? I find just half a day away works wonders. You are not a bad mother for needing a little bit of time and space away from your baby. 
I think it’s good that you’re reaching out, that’s a great first step. Is counseling an option for you? If getting away is difficult, I’ve heard of therapy online or via phone call. One of the sites (they are licensed therapists) is called talkspace.com. 
I’m also thinking about all the changes happening with our toddlers right now. They are beginning to test their limits, which can be exhausting for us. I don’t think you’re alone in feeling annoyed with their behaviors at times. 
I just want to say we support you, and let more people help and support you. Family, friends, a therapist. You deserve the help! You deserve to have some of that exhaustion and annoyance lifted.

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Oh my gosh, I literally went crazy for a couple of months after I stopped breast-feeding/pumping. Let me just tell you it’s some serious business! I felt so out of sorts and so crazy it was unbelievable. You my friend are not alone! Just try to give it a little bit of time and see if that helps. In the meantime, your doctor might be able to give you some advice on something that could help. Perhaps some hormonal treatments or something. Someone gave me some very good advice one time. When I was getting so upset and so frustrated with my baby because I was just so off-balance they said this to me. Just remember that this tiny little human will never be this little or the same ever again. That moment is over. They are growing every second and every time you turn around they are different. You will never get those moments back! I don’t know what it was about that, but it really resonated with me and totally changed my perspective on things. You are your child’s entire world. I promise it will get better!

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should could have post weaning depression. We are susceptible to PPD for three years after having the baby:/ You should look up Angela Lanter on instagram and look at her blog. She suffered through it when her baby was 14 months and she was very open about it. I am sorry you are going through this

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Hi, mama!
I’m no expert, but I do not think PPD would be beginning this late. It definitely could be hormonal changes after stopping pumping. I also agree that maybe making some time for yourself may help.

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So I found this, which suggests ppd does not start this long after giving birth

However, just because it isn’t postpartum depression, doesn’t mean it’s not depression, or that it isn’t hormonal. Stopping pumping certainly could have an effect. I also found this:

Finally, this is a difficult age. Our little ones are much more mobile and curious which means and increased activity level that can be hard to keep up with at times. Add to that the tantrums they are now starting to have and it’s easy to get the toddler parent burnout. Making sure you have help when needed, and some time for yourself can really help.

Delayed post partum depression.. ?

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