My social anxiety has been the worst that it’s ever been recently. I honestly don’t even know what to do anymore because simple tasks are so difficult but at the same time it’s hard to explain to someone why you can’t do something as easily as they can. I haven’t been to a party all year yet and I plan on going to one this weekend. I used to be really heavy into partying and I was fine (kind of) but my social anxiety has gotten so bad that I really don’t think I’ll be able to get through the weekend without having a panic attack. As of recent, I’ve felt like nobody truly understands what it’s like to be constantly aware of yourself and how it feels to be so critical about every aspect of yourself. Everything pisses me off. Today, my best friend gave a presentation and she said “I had an anxiety attack in the middle of it,” and I feel like I should’ve been more supportive but it really annoyed me that she decided to phrase it like that. I’m so tired of feeling this way and I don’t want to leave my bed. I constantly feel like crying which makes me feel like shit because I feel like I’m bringing bad vibes but I can’t help it anymore. At this point, I just want to feel okay.