Feeling fat and unattractive

I feel so upset I know being pregnant brings so many differences with your body but I feel so fat and unpretty I cried in the shower. Not to mention my bf has been saying that he's been getting hit on by other women so now I'm extremely insecure and jealous. I have anxiety and I can't be on any medication so now I'm depressed I can't do anything. I can't clean or cook I feel worthless now. First time in a long time I felt this way. I've gained so much weight everything is getting bigger.