Long story short , my husband and I have only been married for about 10 months . Over these 10 months it’s been a rollercoaster . We never really went through a honeymoon phase, have really been up and down since getting married . We have went to a marriage counselor/therapist and that did not help at all and he actually showed the therapist himself how he talks to me after our last session and him getting mad. We have not been talking for a month and decided yesterday on a separation . Some background recently I told him I felt I was being emotionally abused , he tells me I’m too sensitive or I just can’t “let go “ of things he said or done or I’m being dramatic when I’m actually just fed up with forgiving him and letting go of the toxic things he does . I have finally put my foot down and made it clear that this marriage is not going to work at all if he does not battle his own demons and stop forcing those feelings on me. ( I say to him that he acts unhappy on a daily basis and he turns it on me and say that I’m unhappy). I do have depression and anxiety which has not been bad since high school years ago and it’s been HORRIBLE since I got married . We have went through 2 miscarriages and a bunch of shit that now looking back on was just him blowing up at me no reason . I no longer feel like it’s my fault or that I can help him . I understand that my marriage is toxic at this point and unhealthy . I just can’t seem to walk away , it makes me sad to think that the person I thought I was marrying is not him anymore or never was. There has been a lot of red flags honestly that I overlooked even with him disrespecting his own mother. I just found out I’m pregnant a couple days ago and I did tell him . He forced a smile and then handed it back to me . And then a day later went on to have a conversation about the negative emotions in the house just to say that he’s not seeing a psychologist/psychiatrist despite our therapists (and mine) advice. I know I’m not willing to raise a child with someone who has no respect for women at all and cannot take ownership of their actions. I know what I have to do and working on it just need some encouraging words since I have not told family or friends. I’m staying positive and trying to stay stress free