I do not like my job. It was a job I got when I needed something after being let go from a different place and I’m very grateful that I have it. But it’s been three years and every once in a while I just get so overwhelmed that I go home and sob. And when I don’t, I’m under stimulated and bored to tears anyway. My husband encourages me to think about what kind of work I would like to do.

But here’s the catch. I cannot leave until after I give birth because they have the best maternity policy I think I’ve ever heard of. Six weeks paid leave, plus whatever vacation or sick time I might have left if I want to add it to the end.

I’m two months along, so I still have at least most of a year left to get through. I know the adult thing to do is to at least stay through the end of the pregnancy. But it’s also causing me so much stress that it’s really hard to deal with the day-to-day leading up to them.