Unsure and just tired

Gabrielle

Good night everyone!!! I haven’t posted in a while only cause my phone was destroyed. So some months ago I posted that I had some relationship issues with my ex. We were on and off for the past 9 months. We would break up and get back together like 3 times a week nearly every day. To cut this short the main issues we had in our relationship was contact with our exes and going through my phone. It has been 2 months since we’re officially broken up. But still arguing and still suggesting that we could make things work. Today and some days ago, he’s been asking back for a relationship begging for me back and begging to be his woman again. As much as I am still in love my heart also feels very unsure because he has disrespected me to the highest level you can think of from destroying my phone. To going through my phone, comparing me to his past relationships and the list goes on. I met up with him today and again he has begged for me back. In which just two days ago when I asked to start fresh and forget all that has happened last year he refused. So today when I met up with him he left the area for a bit. So something sparked in me so I went on his Instagram dms on his tablet and I saw he’s really deep in conversation with 2 of his exes especially one in which I had a major issue with. Constantly he would talk about how much he loved her when he was with her and as we got together he said to me he DOES NOT communicate with his exes and deleted their numbers but in the chat I saw where he said I tried to call for New Years. I literally reach the stage where I don’t even feel or bother to confront him about it because I’m just soooo exhausted from all the drama in which it still isn’t going to change. Idk what else to do. Need some advice ASAP 🙏🏼