This might be very confusing. I recently went to the obgyn and she had no interest for me being there whatsoever. I was trying to ask her about my health and things I need to do before ttc. I asked her what would be a healthy weight for me to be at before I ttc. Now I do eat healthy I just eat A LOT of fruit lol. That has lead to me gaining A LOT of weight. I currently weigh 175. She gave me the all clear. So me being stupid I started ttc after she told me my weight was perfectly fine and I could lose weight if I wanted to but it isn’t necessary. I started researching things online about being overweight during pregnancy, and some of the things that popped up really scared me. But I’m kinda upset with myself because I didn’t think about me being overweight and ttc. If I’m not pregnant this time then I’m going to postpone this journey until I’m at a healthier weight. I know you guys may think I’m crazy for thinking this, but I feel like such a failure. I feel completely stupid because I didn’t take my weight into consideration no matter what my diet is like. I sound literally so crazy even saying I didn’t think about my weight too. I just needed a place to express my feelings other than to my husband.