Evap lines...😞

Evap lines make me sad. They feel like BFPs that could have been, and since we've been struggling with my husband's low sperm count, they're all I ever see. I know this is irrational but I feel like a failure when I see evap lines. It hurts a little more because I have exceptionally good eyes. I can see virtually any line...but it's always gray. How do you all cope with this type of thing? It makes me want to give up on testing, or even trying anymore.