I'm so confused 😭

Last month I was 9 days late and I thought for sure I was pregnant but kept getting BFN then AF showed her ugly face and now this month I'm 4 days late and I had two vvvfl on the day my period was supposed to start and another one the next morning but the past two days I've got BFN but I still feel pregnant like I did with my first one so I don't know what's wrong with me, I did stop birth control in October but I had two normal periods then didn't get one at all in December it came in January.. sorry for the rant but i just wish I could be sure I had a little bean growing inside me right now😭