I recently made a post about how my SO can’t stay hard when I get on top to ride. I eventually broke down and had a discussion with him at the time of said post and he admitted he’s scared of me when I go fast bc his dick bends and it hurts. Which I can understand...I’m a bit clumsy and sometimes I get carried away. Okay fine....so when I finally do take that into consideration I’m going slow and controlled...same issue happens. I cry silently once I hop off in defeat and disappointment and we move on.

NOW THIS MOTHERFUCKER tells me again as to why it happens so often is bc he knows I’m not confident. This isn’t the first time I’ve brought the Convo about riding up before. It’s a new excuse everytime. The more I dig, the new explanation occurs. First it’s, I’m not confident. Then it’s he’s scared. Before it’s been he’s got whiskey dick. And now he says “I think I like to be in control idk” I don’t understand why I can’t get a clear answer out of him.

It’s driving me insane and I’m upset. Bc he never had this problem with his ex (yes we’ve talked openly about some detailed past sexual experiences before but that stories for a later time)

I give up honestly. I feel like I’m loose and he doesn’t like it. Maybe I’m disgusting to look at bc I’ve gained so much weight in my stomach and face. I just don’t know any more. My heart is broken over this and I’m trying not to be a baby but this hurts.