when i was 15 i fell pregnant to my at the time boyfriend. of course he was young and an asshole cheating on me left and right. and i was young trying to make it all work because of the “baby” i started bleeding at nine weeks and had to go to the hospital. ER told me they were not seeing what they needed to and to call the doctors monday (i went in friday night) the next day came and my mother called me and said that i had to be at the women’s center in two hours. i went and the ultrasound looked awful. i was going through a molar pregnancy. i immediately was sent to the hospital next door where i was put in a labor and delivery room 🙃🙃 and went through my d&c. i was pushed into a depression that i’m still struggling with. i lost myself completely even though i was so young. now, two years later (still young i knowww i feel stupid for letting it happen) i am pregnant again. but to a new guy who i am madly in love with and isn’t an ass ( for the most part ;) ) anyway i have my first appointment tomorrow to check on the baby. i’m only 7 weeks but considering my last pregnancy they wanted me in sooner. but my anxiety has been through the roof. if i am pregnant it’ll be the first time i carry an actual baby or if i’m not idk how it’ll be. i’m trying to prepare myself for the worst but it just fucks with me more and i really dont know what to do. any advice😩