I don't feel like being a mom today. There, I said it and I feel guilty for saying it. As I heard my son crying from his crib at the crack of dawn, all I could think about was if only he would sleep for another hour. But he doesn't. So I drag myself out of bed to start my day even though I knew it was going to be "one of those days". I feed my son, change his diaper, cuddle him and talk to him. I set out his gazillion toys for him to play with in the living room so I could maybe get some caffeine in my system and heat up some leftovers.

But then I remembered my animals probably want their breakfast. So while I'm getting them situated, I hear it. The little pitter patter of crawling feet and legs. And he peeks his little head through the doorway. Normally it would be so cute and I would laugh but all I could muster was a "hey buddy" cause I'm just not feeling it today. And before I knew it he saw the dog eating and he zoomed right there. I proceeded to pick him up and take him back to his toy station..three times! Finally I finished getting my animals fed and managed to get a bite to eat semi-heated up and grab a quick Mt. Dew to drink and head to sit on the floor with my son.

Then he spots the food in my hand. And it's game over. He thinks now that he has three teeth that he can eat everything. So instead of playing with his toys for ten minutes he is climbing on me trying to get my food. And all I can think about is why do I have to mother today?

As I write this he is throwing a fit over God knows what. Who knew a 9 month old could have the attitude of a toddler?

I love him so much and I love that he loves me and wants to be around me but today I just want some space. But as a single mom I don't really get that luxury much.

I know this will past. Soon he will actually be a toddler and he will be more interested in toys and games and I'll miss the clinginess. I know this is normal baby behavior but today I'm struggling. And it's only 10:30 in the morning. Please tell me I'm not alone in this.