Im 24 weeks pregnant, I'm so freaking depressed all the time. Because my baby's father is a dead beat who doesn't give a damn about me or my baby. He has been so disrespectful to me and used me so many times because I let him because I thought if I gave of myself he would see that and start to care but there's no point, he's never going to change. I hate how much I miss him and wish he was with me when he doesn't give a thought about me or if he does it is a hateful one. And I know he is out here with other girls when he should be with me. The last time we talked he yelled a bunch of mean heartless things to me even though I did nothing wrong. And I feel like I've been pregnant so long and I still have so long to go I feel like this will never end. And ive not been taking care of myself, I started back drinking and smoking to deal with the stress and depression. I worry I've damaged my child. Not going to lie I think about how I could still have an abortion, or give the baby away. I don't know what to do, I am in such a dark place I wish I had never gotten pregnant