I honestly feel as if I been trying to hold on to something that died so long ago .. I fucking can’t standdddd my boyfriend at this point . He had sex with a girl the month we started talking (this month last year) and she ended up pregnant. Me and my boyfriend been on and off for 2 and a half years but completely on for 9 months he asked me to be his gf April 2019. He didn’t tell me about the girl , I had to find out after posting our video on Instagram. Someone commented that he had a baby on the way . When I asked him he lied ! I found out for sure when she was 4 months along but she is married and he said it was a possibility it wasn’t his so I stayed .. that baby was born November 10 (the same day I miscarried my first) he never got a Dna test but the baby looks like him , he never went and met the baby yet but I have been arguing with his baby mother because I know she still has feelings for him . She just knows he will never take her serious . But she’s always disrespecting me . Talking about my baby that died and he NEVER defend me or tell her to chill out ! Tonight he told me “I would slap the pregnant out of you” we began arguing and he told me that he told her that we both need to grow up. I just feel like he should always take my side regardless of what .. he still always texting this girl but not arranging any time to go meet his daughter . The lil girl been here for almost 3 months and they’ve been texting since but never ever got together so he can meet this baby ! I told him he can go be with her and I can take care of my child alone I don’t need him . & he says “then why did you want me to get you pregnant” ... 😳😳 I was so shocked that he said that . I left it alone and said nothing else . then he said “I shouldn’t had got you pregnant” ... I’m done .. He keeps tryin to get me to talk to him about the argument now and trying to fix things but I am completely over it and him . I don’t wanna talk . I don’t wanna sleep next to him nothing !!! He is a complete ass and I will never forgive him for that !