Hi ladies,

I'm looking for some support and maybe to hear some positive outcomes others might have experienced. I was expecting a boy and a girl. I'm 21 weeks today. At 19 weeks my mucus plug came out. 3 days later I started having contractions I was checked out both babies were extremely active and had heart beats. My cervix was still long and closed. I was given medication to stop the contractions and that worked! My next appointment was my 20 week anatomy scan with the high risk doctors. I have a history of preterm delivery my water broke at 29 weeks 5 days with my daughter who is now 3 and during that pregnancy I was hospitalized about a month and delivered her at 34 weeks 5 days. What's happening right now is much different. At my 20 week scan this past Friday my girl was wonderful and they did all her measurements and listened to her heart but before measuring my boy and checking my cervix the tech said she just wanted to ask the doctor about me having lost my mucus plug before finishing up. The doctor came in and started scanning me and my son's heart didn't light up and there was no heart beat. She announced "Baby B has passed away I'm sorry". My husband gasped so loud and began to cry, I stared at the monitor silent hoping and praying she was wrong not wanting to accept what she just told us. Next I needed to undress so they could check my cervix. I couldn't understand why this had happened and the doctors didn't have answers either but then more bad news. My cervix that was 3cm long and closed just the Wednesday before was now 1cm and funneling. Cerclage isn't an option I'm not sure why but they've prescribed me progesterone and I'm on strict bedrest (to the bathroom and to shower only) until I deliver my babies. I was told I could go into labor anytime and we're going to try to hold onto the 1cm of cervix as long as we can to keep her in. I was told viability isn't until 23 weeks and even if she is born between 23-28 weeks it will be a difficult road but the reality is I still have 2 weeks to even get to that point. My baby kicks that should bring me joy but sometimes bring tears to my eyes, then when I don't feel her I start to worry I have so many mixed emotions. I lay here in bed trying not to make sudden moves & just trying to keep her in and alive. Please pray for us that all will turn out for the best. I will have weekly scans to check my cervix so this next Friday should be very telling on how things are going. Has anyone else had this particularly happen and had a positive outcome? I've heard and read all the risks and realities but I'd just like some encouragement.