How to stop? 💔 please help

How do I stop ttc? I have got a little to obsessed with it lately. No like I Literally took 4 hpts in one day last week. Told husband during period last month that maybe we should take a ttc break and he agreed but by the time I was about to O I started testing and we hit the high days and peak day but now here I am 12 dpo with bfns mad, frustrated and sad. It really does make me sad to give up for now but idk what else to do. I hate to admit it but I have been taking my bfn frustration out on my family. How do I stop? Should I just go get bc? What do I do with my free time?