So husband and I tried for a very long time. Found I had a blocked tube. Didn’t have any joy getting pregnant after nearly two years. Was planning on getting on BC when we got here.

I applied for my nursing degree literally the other side of the country as it’s free. I have no friends. No family here. Nor does he. And last week we found out we are expecting. I’ve already moved at this point.

I feel so guilty for feeling so flat and just...blasé about it. But I’m really upset. I’m miles from my loved ones, my support network. Already have pre-existing mental health issues.

Discovered my marriage isn’t all that whilst I’ve been here and we really aren’t getting along.

I just feel so low and stuck. I dont know what I’m doing anymore. I’d like to think that if I still lived near family I’d feel excited but I don’t know. And the guilt I feel for feeling so

Eh. Is unreal. So please no judgement for that 😢.