help please

so i might have the lowest sex drive when it comes to masterbating. even when im at my horniest i can’t organism, or im right on the brink. i’m too young to buy a sex toy to help, being that i would need a car, money, and would overall just be embarrassed (and yes i know sex, masterbating, etc isn’t something to be embarrassed about, it’s just im on the younger side to feel comfortable buying these things.)) so last night i tried to use a shower head and it was just not for me. ik for a fact its because i’m doing it wrong or i’m just overthinking it , so can someone give me tips on how to please myself with at home things, and how to use them for the most fulfillment. porn is probably on the top of the things that have almost worked. i just want something easy, new, and sexy...

please no hate tho...i realize i’m asking a lot but i don’t have a mother to ask this. anyways thank you!