I have done pretty well this pregnancy with not being overly anxious (something that happens to me during pregnancy only) but recently I’ve noticed myself getting panicky. All that keeps going through my head is that this baby has to come out. He can’t just stay in there.

The reason this is causing me so much anxiety is because I had a c-section 9 years ago and before this baby I had no idea that the scar opening was something that could even happen. That is scaring the shit out of me, I’m so worried. I also decided against another csection because of the risk of blood clots, blood loss, recovery, all that scary stuff. So I’m literally terrified of BOTH of the ways this baby can make his way into the world. I’m also really scared something is going to go wrong and I die. I don’t know how to shake these fears but need to because I’m 34 weeks and time isn’t going to slow down. Plus, I want to enjoy this last bit of pregnancy and I want his birth to be a happy thing.