Man I always think it wont get to me. The period before/on my due date always gets me down.

In almost exactly a month would be the due date for my last 2 daughters. Both MMC neither made it past the first trimester, but man does it get to me to think that I would noth be celebrating my seconds birthday AND my third would be born. This is also around the time that my first miscarriage happened, so it's odd to think I'd have a preschooler now too. But nope. Empty home.

Were looking into applying for adoption in a year or so and hoping but not expecting a miracle. Man it's a hard time of year for me.