To make a long story short... I was supposed to be induced Sunday (it’s now Wednesday) at 36w for medical reasons. Friday came around and they were like nope, we aren’t inducing now. So 48 hours before I was supposed to start the process, it was taken away. I’m a FTM so like the nerves went too and we were happy she would be able to grow more... but it hit emotionally. So Saturday-Monday, my in-laws came down, as they had planned, because they won’t be able to come down for the birth of my daughter now.

I went to my appointment Monday and induction was back on the table (they don’t know for when) and I underwent more medical testing for preeclampsia. I got home and I slept all day and all night. Yesterday, went to get labs done. Slept all day and all night. Today, all day so far. I’m REALLY struggling and I’m so afraid for when she actually comes. I’m also a full-time student and I can’t seem to work on school stuff. I graduate in 5 weeks... I can’t mess it up now.