Feeling Down

As I’m getting closer to baby arriving I’m getting more anxious but my anxiety is coming from I’m scared I’m not going to be a good mom. I’m a FTM and I’m excited to meet my baby but at the same time I’m worried I’m not gonna know what to do and if I’m gonna raise this boy right. My fiancé is already such a natural dad and everyone constantly praises him and tells him he’s going to be the most amazing dad. No one ever tells me hey you’re gonna do great too and it gets to me. I told him how I felt and of course he says he knows I will be an amazing mom too, but I feel like everyone is expecting me to fail and my fiancé to be perfect at it.

I’m scared that when the baby comes everyone will be like “see we knew she couldn’t handle this” and I don’t want to disappoint. I want to be a strong mom. I want to be seen like everyone sees my fiancé as this perfect parent to be.

I know I’m probably being dramatic but I can’t help it. I want people to have faith in me the way they have faith in my fiancé. It makes me sad that I let them get to me to the point I don’t have faith in myself. I really want to make my baby proud that he has a mom like me but I don’t even know where to start.