My ex and I have 3 kids together. Been divorced almost 3 years. Relationship was very toxic. A few days ago we were discussing our kids high school careers. Theyll be Freshmen next year and I wpuld like for them to go to a decent high school. I asked about the school district he lived in. He informed me that he was moving because he and his gf were building a house. My heart sank. He wouldn't do anything for us when we were married. He used drugs, lied, stole money.. basically addiction was his life. He tried teatment but was playing the system. I got tired of it and left with the kids.

A year later he was arrested, placed in DOC, sought treatment and has been clean since. We started talking about us again when he was in jail. He was rekeased under house arrest and moved into a friends house. I would go see him, the kids would stay the night. We fell asleep during a show we were watching. I woke up to his phone going off. It was a text from a girl that he worked with. Told me thwre was nothing to worry about. My gut wouldn't allow that. I wnded it for good again. 2 weeks later, taking the kids over there, she's there and he introduces her as his girlfriend. Again, crushed. I go on with my life. She's actually a really nice lady and had no idea we were seeing each other again. I never told her.

Anyway, I dropped the kids off tonight and I noticed he's wearing a wedding band and she has a ring on her finger. I left and vomited outside my car. I asked him if he truky loved her, if she was his forever, etc. He affirmed that she was and he's 100% sure about her. They even go to counseling together.

I dont know why I'm so upset. He's a piece of shit in my book, but a good dad nonetheless. I dont understand why he couldn't be like this for us. Why we're we not good enough for him to get his shit together...

I dont know.