Ladies I’m struggling a bit.

**Full disclosure** My heart, mind, body, everything started craving a baby 5 years ago when life brought us an unintentional pregnancy, which we subsequently lost. Before then the baby subject hadn’t really factored much in my mind.

My husband (then boyfriend) helped me through the VERY dark time that followed. In recent years I’ve dealt A LOT better with my emotions but the pull of starting a family that the event kick-started has never lessened.

We got married in February 2019 and the hope was for my husband to feel ready by the end of the year, however, that got pushed back a bit when we bought and moved into our home in November, so now we’ve agreed on this summer.

My struggle now is the wait for this summer to come around. Everything’s a reminder. Walking past aisles in Boots today, seeing families together when we went to grab some lunch. It’s occupying my mind ALL THE TIME!

I don’t know what to do! 🤷🏼‍♀️