I have been really out of it... I get into moods where I want to leave and I plan out everything... I can’t talk to my counselor at school about everything bc my mom and grandma don’t want anyone knowing my business I don’t have dependable friends and I have been this way since forever right now I’m in a mood and I’m trying to fight the urge to cut but it’s really bad, I wish i had someone to just talk on the phone with that understands... this happened a lot and the more I try to resist my mood later on when I do fall into it I get really really deep