Break up

I’m in high school and this is probably not gonna matter in the future but right now it does and it hurts....I dated my boyfriend for 8 months and it was amazing but there were downs like any relationship. we would fight and get jealous of little dumb things and argue about plenty of things it was getting unhealthy and we were sick of fighting.we got in a big fight last week and it lead to us breaking up. I have no words because besides all the fights he was the best thing that’s ever happened to me he’s the one guy I’ve been super in love with I’ve never felt a love so strong. He was my bestfriend and he claims were still friends but it doesn’t seem like that I got super drunk and called him crying and told him I loved him and that we can work things out and other stuff but I don’t remember at all. I was blackout drunk and then I tried to talk to him the next day about it he was very mad because he doesn’t drink or anything like that.and that was the second time I’ve ever gotten drunk and the last because it wasn’t the best thing to do.I’ve learned from it...But I just feel completely broke I’ve been crying so much and I have to see him tomorrow at school. Any advice I could really use some.