8/10 I have Pre period spotting. It's my tell that it's a other failed month and honestly, my heart just dies a little more each month.

I'm three days away from AF (Glow is pretty accurate with me, I'm also quite regular). This morning I went to pee, nothing. Like an hour later I went again and the paper was full of blood, it was quite heavy and bright red. No cramps.

Hours later and it's let up, still no cramps.

But I know it's inevitable. I know it's not implantation. I know it's just a matter of time.

This is so frustrating I feel like I could scream sometimes. Everytime this time of month I just cry because it's so much to be TTC for so long, and no reason why you can't get pregnant, and knowing you can't afford the next treatment seeing as Clomid failed.