How did this happen again

I lost my daughter almost two years ago due to pprom at 20 weeks was told it was a fluke don’t worry it’s not gonna happen again I got pregnant again this past November and everything was going good no complications then 2/15 when I was 17 weeks 1 day I was going to the bathroom when I felt the same feeling as when my water broke last time so I got up quick and was gonna go to the er but as soon as I stood up my water exploded and my heart broke again not believing I would be going through this again I went to the hospital and has to relive everything that happened with my daughter I wouldn’t let them induce me I said I’ll go home and see what happens and on 2/18 at 10 pm I went into labor and started having contractions at home at left to the hospital and he was born at 2:59 am my heart is so broken I dont know how I can recover from this