We had sex and you didn't come...

We had sex and you didn't come and I feel like since we haven't done it in so long instead of you being all over me and coming right away you act like its a chore and your over it because you had it already. You not coming makes me feel like your getting satisfied somewhere else. And that makes me feel really really bad really mad and really unattractive and ugly. It makes me not even want to be intimate so I won't have to deal with feeling like your doing it because you have to not because you want to. I feel like I'm getting rejected and idk how to handle that because Iv never been rejected. Iv always been wanted. I feel ugly and nasty and there's nothing that I can do to make myself feel better. Yea I know I'm creating life and it's all part of pregnancy and it will hopefully go away but it sucks to feel like you find me gross or creepy or I don't turn you on. Like I don't even want to be sexual with you at all anymore because I don't want you to see me like this. You think I want to be all emotional and hormonal around you? You really think I'm being purposely vulnerable for attention. No Franklin. I don't even want you to look at my naked body because I don't want you to notice the things I see. It's not just my swollen face or pimples on My back and now chest that I'm dealing with. It's so much more then that. But I don't want to say it because I don't want you to see it. And then I'm dreading you watching me give birth, what if you get disgusted by me. I'm not saying your love for me will change I'm talking about physical attraction. I dont know I just feel like our sex life is dying compared to how we where. And I feel like your getting used to how it is now that's it's going to stay this way. You can't even have sex with me now because it "freaks you out" imagine after I give birth? It's just going to get worse and your just going to do it out of pity. While you have someone on the side that will fulfill your needs. Yes I'm having your baby and yes you chose me to be with and yes we'll be linked for life and yes why would you fuck up our family by cheating on me I hear you and I understand trust me but that doesn't change anything it doesn't make me feel better. Look at all these guys with newborns and children that cheat on their wives. I'm just really insecure. Yea the baby is what i should be worried about and trust me he comes before anything. And I am worried about his health and well being and bringing him safely in to this world. but it's hard feeling like this. These are things that are visibly there and I can't ignore. 😔 I just need some confidence booster comments please, I just sent this to my so. Anyone else feeling like this. And to the mommies out there how was your relationship with your so after the baby came.