Rainbow baby - positive test

So we lost our twin babies at 15 weeks back in October. I could easily say it was one of the most devastating things I have ever experienced.

Well fast forward to yesterday and when I got up to get ready for work, something just told me to take a test. So I did and all I had was a digital one. While I waited for it to load, all I could think was that it was going to be negative.

It wasn’t! I was so beyond excited that I woke my husband up at 430 to look it and confirm I wasn’t seeing things. But then it was like I hit a brick wall. I immediately got so anxious and worried about something happening again.

Don’t get me wrong I’m so excited for this little baby but I’m extremely terrified that something is going to happen. Might be a little TMI but every time I feel any discharge, I immediately think that it’s blood and have to go check.

We haven’t scheduled our first OB appointment yet (they’re closed on Fridays 🙄) so we will schedule it Monday. But I can’t wait to go in and see that tiny heart beat and hopefully be reassured that everything is okay.

Sorry long post but needed to vent.