Ferber Method

Okay mamas. I have been so against sleep training methods that involve crying but gentle sleep training is not working for my stubborn girl. We bed share and breastfeed still but I am literally getting NO sleep! She wakes up to nurse every 1.5 - 2 hours. I’m aware that this isn’t abnormal but the way my life is set up with work, grad school, and a husband that doesn’t really pull his weight, waking up 6 or more times a night isn’t cutting it. Last night was our first official Ferber trial. She cried for 30 minutes initially and woke up at her usual times. I only nursed her at her 1 am wake up and when she woke up around 5 am, I was so exhausted that I just brought her to bed with me. Did I screw it up for myself already?? I do kinda want to have morning time cuddles so I don’t mind her being with me a few hours in the morning. Can anyone just let me know their experience with Ferber? Also please don’t judge me for sleep training. I don’t want to do it but I need sleep to be a better mom and wife.

Side note: my husband works nights and comes home and sleeps most of the day. So I’m basically a single parent for the most part.